8.19.2010

the time is now

Billy came to the hospital as quick as he could. Although, he couldn't be sure why he was there. Wasn't like he was the father of Amy's baby. True, Newt was a real uncle.

Sadly, he knew they were drifting a part. It could have been his fault. Thing was Billy had no idea what to do with his life. He hated how Newt straightened things out. He had a job now at the hospital. He was supporting the family well enough. It was a nice little unit.  And Billy felt he'd let them all down.

Well, his music was finally taking off, but he couldn't stay here in Hollyoaks. He'd have to move to Japan if he wanted to be a pop-star. It was just a matter of time.

Billy had to think this was like ripping a band-aid off. Really quick, before the pain set in. He'd just tell them what was happening at the hospital. He had a ticket, already. Just a few hours til it was time.

He found Newt out in the hallway. There was Leia with him. Liam in his arms.

"Good. I have you all here." Billy mustard up a smile.

"Yeah?" Newt looked tired, but still strong. Strong enough to take the news. "Glad you're here. Its a baby girl."

"Really?" Billy hadn't expected that. "She doing OK?"

"Great." Newt smiled.

"Good." Billy sucked in a breath. "Look, I got some news for you. And you take how ever you like."

"What is it?" Newt winced.

"I'm leaving." Billy touched Leia's blond hair.

"Leaving? What do you mean?" Newt looked hurt.

"Japan. I can make load of cash, you see. And, and I'll send back all sort of goodies for you, Leia. Maybe if things go well, you could come to visit." Billy smiled as if he might have taken a good drug somehow.

"Do you know what you're doing, Billy?" Newt shook his head, no.

"Yes, I think I do." Billy nodded. He was tired of being depressed. Being the one who didn't shine through when he could have.

"Do you even know the language?" Newt's face tensed.

"It'll be all right. I have to. I have to do this. I have to see what I'm made of, Newt." Billy pressed a smile. Newt hugged him tight then. But he didn't tell him Don't go. Instead, he clinged to him for the longest time. It almost took Billy's breath away. He wasn't quite sure they were done. Possibly, they were.

4 comments:

molly said...

Say it ain't so! They're breaking up?

meg said...

What a shock for Newt. So sad.

ivy's closet said...

what an awful time.

ivy said...

aw, I didn't think it would come to that.